Ouch!!!!!!!

I think I'm in slow labour!!!!

It was action stations a couple of nights ago, I paced the floor for half the night doing my breathing as instructed! Was told to get my head down for a rest and what do you know? It stopped!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

How frustrated am I???

I have had many more little incidents like this and I am still sat here getting increasingly fed up with the situation now. I'm a relatively patient person but even now this is pushing me to hysteria!

I have done the usual little tricks to jump start the situation, walking, manic cleaning, spicy foods......to no evail!

This likkle person is obviously nice and snug and making the most of some quiet time before she is unleashed into this bedlam place that is my life!

I would appreciate an appearance this weekend though. I have family and friends all standing by and I'm getting  regular phone calls to check if I'm ok and still here. It's driving me mad.

The only benefit is that I have done NOTHING for several days now. My girlies are away with their Dad so the house is quiet, unbelievably tidy and clean and remains like that during the night, (no little kiddies coming down and trashing the place at the crack of dawn)

I have finished my crochet projects and had to get my bits and bobs of wool out to start on another little project to fill my time. Well, as I keep saying, you can never have too many crochet blankets can you?

I'm pleased to know that Wimbledon will be keeping me occupied next week. I love it! Especially when I get chance to actually sit and watch it and not have to sit through CBeebies all day!!

So, there you have it. I'm off now to march down to the shops to buy a winning lottery ticket and hopefully let gravity do the work for me and speed up this little monkey's arrival!!!!

I will keep you posted. Have a good weekend my lovelies!
Best wishes
Nic xxx

Hello Lovelies........

So here as promised are some updated photos of STUFF!!!!!!!

Firstly, it's Mum's wacky birthday cake!!!! This was a couple of weeks work and the first and last time I will be tackling fondent icing!!!!!!!!

 

It is my Mum sat in her living room with the usual bedlam of her 6 grandchildren plus my likkle unborn and our doggy Daisy Mae!!!! You won't know from the picture but all the figures resemble the kiddies brilliantly!

 

I was so so so so pleased this worked out how we wanted it too even though it totally stressed me out it made everyone laugh!!!

 

And I don't know how we managed it but the figures are still in one piece and in a nice box for Mum to keep.......even though the lads were desperate to eat themselves!!

 

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One of the joys about being here just with my girlies is that I can do and have whatever I like in my home, I can fill it if I want, I don't get aggrivated at having to have a Formula 1 Model car on my fireplace!! Everything I have in my home I love, everything means something to me, yes there are lots of clashing styles but that I now realise doesn't matter what so ever. A home is about love, about family, about feeling cosy and calm and I have that here. I can't explain how happy and calming it is to be here, in the UK, in my new home with all my clutter!!!

 

So here we are.....a little tour round my humble abode, with a few little treasure bits I have found along the way.

 

 

 

I love this mirror, I found it in a second hand shop for a couple of pound and it sits proudly over my fireplace, I adore fairy lights, I would have them everywhere. Its a bit too white/cream and needs some colour adding here but is a working progress and I know there is something in the charity shop waiting to be found!

 

My sleeping cherub guarding my 50p vase!!

I adore this bargain tea pot!!! Found in the little treasure shop I told you about. It's too nice for me to use so I have it sat on my coffee table so I can admire it constantly!

 

 

I have a thing for candles at the moment!



I love this poster, I wanted it for ages, it was featured in Monica's appartement in Friends. I found it eventually online. I love the colours and the French connection.

 

This is my happy place!
Its my cosy corner with all my favorite and essential things to operate my life: crochet projects, cosy blankets, remotes, laptop, ipod, phone, biscuits and .....................................



Ben & Jerry's!!!!!!! Well why not??.........

 

25p plant, in a 50p car boot find jug, sat on an embroidered cloth at a bargain 10p!!!! I love this thrifting!!

 

 

My girlies room......please note the little cushion.................

This little cushion was my 11 year old girlie wirlie's creation. Whilst on a visit to Nanna's house she had some time with material, paint and stensils. Not only one for her bedroom but one for me for my birthday. I treasure it. xxxxxxx

 

 

 

 

This is baby's room........

I don't know why but we call her Baby? Belle-Elise is almost 3 years old and it has just dawned on us that this will cause confusion once the New Baby arrives so now the New Baby has already been nicknamed Tiny Baby!!!!

 

Finally finished and slightly tweaked since the original TaDah moment. Baby's blanket!!

 

Now my room with Tiny Baby's corner!!!!!...... 

 

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These are my newly found collection. They have just sort of "Happened" I had a couple and then recently I just seemed to stumble on them and now I love them. They are all filled tiny bits and bobs.

 



 

My beautiful angel looks after us all as we dream away, meant for the garden she is too lovely to leave outside.

My bags are packed,(not these cases, these are full of childhood memories) the clothes are washed and as you can see everything is ready for Tiny Baby!!

I'm sat very IMPATIENTLY waiting for her arrival.

On the right is TIny Baby's crochet blanket, ( I have finally caught up and now all my girlies have one)
On the left is my crochet blanket, made with love by my Nanna..........38 years ago!!!!!! It is much treasured and will be used once more with Tiny Baby!!!!!!

 

 

Can you remember how tiny these little socks and vests are???? Its hard to believe in a very short time there will be another likkle girlie snuggling in them.......

 

In the meantime Piglet is keeping the moses basket warm!

 

 

 

How organised am I????????

 



And there you have her!!! I think I'm about to go POP!!!!!!!!

I think that covers my whistle stop tour, now friends far away,,,,love you honey,,,,,,can see how its going and see that I'm really settled!

I wish you all a lovely weekend, I hope I haven't bored you too much.
Lots of love
A very impatient, fat, tired, aggrivated pregnant woman!!!!!!!!
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Two and a half months have passed since my last blog. Gosh sooooo much has happened I have no idea where to start to update you.

Settling in
I have finally moved into my own place with my girlies and although still unpacking bits and bobs I had completely forgotten I had as they were packed away so very long ago, it already feels like home and safe, For me that is a very important feeling to have after the stress and unsettlement of the first six months of this year. 

I found this little gem, after becoming very dispondent and after virtually giving up looking for a new home for us due to the complete and utter wrecks I had previously looked at.  I have an eye and can spot potential yet some places I visited were horrendous and obviously had never seen any love nor care. I almost cancelled my appointment to view this house it was only because it was so close to my Mums house that I decided to have a quick look. 

I'm so pleased I did. My paperwork went in the same day and BINGO! Here I am sat in my new sunny living room. All my nick nacks out, a man free zone, I have the remote, the phone, the laptop and homemade biscuits!!! OHHH its fab!!!!

I set straight to decorating although it only really needed a bit of TLC, it's looking really homely. Just the hall, stairs and landing to tackle now and they are being sorted Monday, 

My girlies are pleased with their new home, new room, settled in great and have even made some playmates so are always outside playing. 

I have in dribs and drabs got most of my furniture treasures back from France, still a couple of bits and bobs to come back but all in all I am happier with the situation. I have just read through my previous post and was shocked at how negative, low and in such a bad place I was just a few weeks ago. I'm still a long way away from being me but bit by bit I have made progress, helped with the fact I have been so busy recently on a mission to sort my life out and turn what seemed like a BIG negative into a BIG positive. 

New arrival imminent!

Only 25 days now until the new little addition to our girlie household arrives. I'm thrilled to be able to say that it will be another girlie wirlie to join our team! We are all ready and sat waiting now.  Name chosen but to be kept a secret,  the cots up, the prams assembled, bottles ready in the steriliser, nappies and tiny baby grows are patiently waiting for the little body to fill them!

 It has been, in my experience of pregnancies, a quick one, a relatively easy one health wise, I have only gained a stone in weight which we all know makes life so much easier afterwards to get back into ones jeans!! All this is probably due to the amount of other stress with moving back to the UK, going through a divorce and custody battles, moving, again, from Mums to my house and all the other related stress factors being so much bigger than the worry of the pregnancy, it has been a doddle and soon will be over. 

This last stretch though is always the longest as you ladies will be aware. The heat will be great in about 4 weeks when the little one arrives and we want to be out and about but a bit of a cooler couple of weeks would be greatly appriciated due to the fact I daren't leave the house in fear of over heating!!!! 

New finds and treasures.

One of the joys about this little house being MY HOUSE, is that I can fill it to the gills with whatever I like!!! All my little chintzy bits and bobs have pride of place and my "bit of a mixed up style thingy" I have going on........not shabby chic, not retro, not French chic.......but a bit of everything and anything, just whatever I like, works surprisingly well here.  Adding to this I have stumbled on a new little shop in town, I almost crashed my car when I spotted it, Vintage and Retro Emporium. Its a little gem, filled with alsorts of treasures from upcycled furniture pieces, vintage clothes and trinkets. I have already spent to much money in there but Im so pleased with my little finds and they have added greatly to my mixed up collection. Photos will follow once I have caught up with my postings and recent events. 

I am also a now dedicated frequenter of the charity shops. I never had the time before and being in France they didn't have the same thing. Every few days I do a little wander. In one of the local towns we have a road full of them so I can make a moring of it. Not only doing my bit for charity, making one feel better, but finding some great stuff! I do need to be careful though as I realise this could turn into an obsession quite easily and before I know it I will be sat here under mounds of rubbish!!! For now I have plenty of room left to fill!!

Mums 60th

In the middle of all this we also had Mums 60th birthday. My sister and are owe my Mum such a lot and wanted to do something really special to show her how we feel. Not very easy though when she was adament that all she wanted was a meal in a local pub with me and my girlies, my sister and her kiddies and her partner. We decided to over rule her in the end and book a meal in a lovely restaurant and secretly added her extended family and close friends to the invited. Nervously unsure wether this was the right thing to do and how she would take it, we were very releaved that all went well. 
We also said we didn't know what to buy her for her birthday and as she doesn't like waste and would rather have something as a gift that she wants opposed to buying something for the sake of buying it, we both gave her a bit of an IOU with the promise to do something or buy something later when we could afford to do so. Meanwhile we had booked a trip for the 3 of us to New York in the spring next year! What a surprise!!!! Needless to say she is thrilled!!!! As are we!!!!!

We even turned our hands to cake making and decorating! My sister baked a fabulous cake and I set to decorating it. I don't do baking and this is the first time I have tackled fondent icing, well any type of icing really. We couldn't decide what decor to do so in the end I came up with a comic scene to decorate the top of the cake with and then...I don't know how or why......decided that it couldn't really be that difficult to do.....could it???? Several days in......my answer to that is YES it is difficult. 
Anyhow,,,,,,,the cake was finished, looked and tasted amazing too. Lots of hours work went into it but it was completely worth. It will be, I will say now, the first and last!!!!!

So there you go lovely people, my recent events!!! No doubt I have missed something, I have tried to be a little more positive than my last post and I hope I haven't frightened you lovely followers away with my negative thinking and depressing previous posting. 

ONWARD AND UPWARDS from now on,,,,,,,,,,,I PROMISE!!!!

Lots of love xxxxxx

A long way to go.......Will I ever get there?

Time to reflect...I have come so far in the last few months yet I feel a million miles away from where I want to be in life. My future seems to be in the hands of everyone else now and that doesn't fill me with much confidence at all. 

I have done all I can at this moment. I'm still sat waiting, still sat here lost within myself, knowing I can do nothing, knowing that on the first inspection it appears I have nothing, that I have left everything behind. Yet everything I own is tied up in the hands of someone else with no quick means of releasing it.  Living with the bear necessaties of life and wanting, needing and hoping for so much more. 

Everyone, I'm sure, thinks I am selfish for making a huge decission to change my life so drastically but do they really see why? Do they see it was for the benefit of my girlies and myself?

 Why does it matter what people think? Will their attitudes change when I get where I want to be? People fast forget the huge progress you have made when there is a low point in your life. You truely do find out who is important to you within your family and network of friends when you hit rock bottom. Thankfully I have some fantastic friends helping me through this yet some people close by have surprised me.......well no, not surprised me as I should have known better.  The problem being, my rock bottom wasn't caused by me, my methods of sorting out the situation and changing our lives were my decission but I still see and maintain I had no other option. 

When I look back I have allowed other people to dictate my life to me. Although I was probably in a situation which on the surface appeared great to other people, I know I have actually only had about 12 months in 11 years which were truely happy. 

All I have ever tried to do is find happiness, find some calm for myself and my girlies. Why does that bother some people? Why do people make me feel I have to explain myself and my actions? I don't question other peoples lives, everyone lives how they want to, weather they are happy with their lives or not, their lives are their lives, they control them and they are nothing to do with me so why is my life open to discussion?

The future scares me enormously now, waiting fills me with dread, hoping for more seems useless now, not being in control of the situation is terrifing to me. I have a plan yet can't enforce it. I can't allow mysef to wish for things as I can't bear the knock back of dissapointment that it brings. 

All I can do is sit and wait. Sit and hope. Have faith that someone somewhere who knows my life path, knows where they are taking me and guides me there sooner rather than later........please! 

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Weekend Waffle!!!

Hello friends,

 
I hope this finds you all well and that you all haven't got this horrendous rain we have which is now taking its toll on my spirit! It feels like Spring is still a long way away.

SO today is Comic Relief Day as I'm sure you are all aware from the fabulous night the Beeb are putting on........Miranda Hart is absolutely amazing....I love her! She has raised so soooooo much money this week.
 
Anyway ....  I finally threw an outfit together for my girlies to wear at school. It turned out ok in the end and they went off smiling with their donations. Its amazing what you can do with a bit of red net!

 

My comic relief girlie's

 

My makes

 
 
Whilst I was on the local market buying supplies to make these little tu-tu's I was drawn to the haberdasherie section with....yes....the dangerous stuff.....BUTTONS!!! (crafters sweeties!)

I obviously had to have some as their lovely Spring colours called out to me in my craving state for sunshine. The next problem being involving them in a Spring project.

Yes I know,,,,another project when there is so many UNFINISHED projects crying out to be finished.





 
In the end I opted for a quick and easy Grannie Cushion. I don't even have anywhere to put it yet but decided to use this spare time I seem to have an abundance of at present to get ahead of myself on little makes I can decorate my new home with. My new home that I haven't even found yet, let alone moved into. However it gives me something to concentrate on and I know what it will look like when I do find it and also how it will be decorated.


 

 

 

So here is the front piece of my new Spring like cushion cover with my new Spring like sweeties....hhhmm.....sorry I mean buttons! Its great as its a quick project that won't sit in my unfinished pile for an eternity!



 
  I love it and I think I now need to make another in a different colour way!

 

 
 

Discoveries

 

 

As we previously discussed life has changed and I am now trying to find my feet here in the UK again. Well this week I rediscovered the Library! Now I love the internet for instantly being able to find what you are looking for yet you can't beat holding a library book in your hands.

 The smell of the library takes me back donkeys years too. I can't explain it but its just a calming and pleasant experiance. A bit of time out from the hustle and bustle of life outside the Library walls.

My girlies came along and we all have a new library card and can spend some quality time together away from the TV.

They were really funny, I don't think they GET the concept really! That you are allowed to take several books for several weeks.....without paying for them.....then swap them for some new ones??????! They looked at me like I was talking jibberish!

 It was a lovely hour spent after school all together. Clutching their piles of well chosen books and their membership cards they were beaming.

My eldest Girlie Wirlie chose a kiddies craft book and a fancy dress book....yey! I will be having a sneaky peak! Also a book about the Queen. (She is definately a mini me! My Girlie not the Queen of course!!!) Then they sat reading out facts and dates like " When was the Queens Coronation?" or "How old was the Queen when she had Prince Charles?"...........I do have all the answers should anyone want them!

 I'm really pleased at the interest she has shown and like I say, it doesn't involve a TV, DS or a mobile!!! RESULT!!

I also found two interesting books to bring home with me. "Crochet Accessories" and "Shed Chic".

I have been flicking through them both. The Shed Chic has some lovely shed conversions, offices, workspaces and studios. The photos are lovely.

They brought back memories of my poor little "Vintage Suzie" caravan still sat in France without me.

 I miss her. I don't know if I will get her back but I hope so. I have spent many a happy hour in there with my basket of yarn and hook, tea and chocolate. I love her so.

  I took out all my caravan chintzy bits and bobs so at least I have those here as a reminder but she is bare without them and all on her lonesome sat in dreary Normandy. She needs love and chintz and clutter!

 Hopefully one day we may be reunited again.

 

I discovered these chicken coops.  Aren't they fab!  Take a peek!

 

 

And when I win the Lotto this gorgeous little caravan will be parked on my estate!

 

 Oh to dream!

 

 

And finally.......... a finished project!

 TA-DAH!!!..........One finished baby blanket.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 I think it looks quite sweet. Scarey to think in a few short months it will have a loving new owner! AAAAAHHHHHH

 

Anyway changing the subject quickly before I have another panic attack!

There you have it. My recent events and waffle!!

I hope everyone has a lovely weekend with a touch of Spring. If not with the weather, with some colour, treats and special people.

 I'm going off now to have a major tidy up as my lovely Mum is on her way home from a sunny beach (God she will get a shock with the temperature difference) and I haven't done a great deal since she left other than the essentials, hooving and washing up! My ironing pile is HUGE!!

 

 So HI HO...Its off to work I go !!!!!!!!

Best wishes

Nicky xx

 

 

Red nose day fancy dress........HELP!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!

 

 

Morning ladies....and gents.......although not sure how many gentlemen tune into my blog apart from my family and good friends. So Morning Everyone!

 

I hope everyone had a lovely weekend. Mine was rather lazy but it was supposed to be so it went to plan.

 

 

So today I am sat frantically trying to think of 2 more fancy dress ideas for my girlie's for Friday's Red Nose Day!

 

Im scouring the web for inspiration and not coming up with much really.

 

Looks like it is going to be a trip to the market and some more sewing projects!!!  A few late nights for me on the horizon then!

 

We had one fancy dress day a year at the girlie's school in France and all year to prepare for it but this is the second in their 3rd week of school.

 

Brilliant fun for the girlie's and great for the charities involved but not so great for me who took the, obviously wrong decission I see now, to not bring over all their fancy dress box of clothes just yet as we were short of room! Never mind, its keeping me busy and something else to think about!

 

So Im off in the search of stripy tights, netting for tu-tu's, T'shirts to decorate!!

 

Anyone with any bright ideas???? Im open to suggestions, 2 outfits needed, cost is also an issue and time is a factor too!

 

Thank you in advance

 

Best wishes for a happy Monday.

Nicky xx 

 

 

 



Dear My Mum.

Another Mothers Day arrives,

The years seem like they fly,

I'm happy to be able to say,

For this year, I'm close by.

 

For every year I'm miles away,

Unable to share with you,

What should be a very special day,

With lots of hugs and fun things to do.

 

 

I can not express just how I feel,

All the things you do for me,

The love, the support, the help you give,

It comes ever constantly.

 

 

I'm so proud to have a Mum like you,

So special you'll always be,

Even living together now,

Fills my heart with glee!

 

 

Peas in the pod we've always been,

So how we cope......remains to be seen.

In your little house we all squash in,

Close and cozy like beans in a tin!

 

 

With a house full of girlie's,

And just one loo,

First up and dressed is a challenge too!

 

 

Our nightly chats and bags of crisps,

Chocolate, wine and nibbles too,

Taste so much better now,

I'm sharing them with you.

 

 

I've missed all the times we could have had,

Whilst living across the sea,

But happy to be home again,

Close by with you and me.

 

 

I love you more than I could ever say,

and pleased we are together,

To share a laugh or a special day

I hope it lasts forever.

 

 

Happy Mothers Day Mum!

 

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